Malnourished

Today I spotted, and I'm not on the pill. I've never spotted before. I'm supposed to have my period right now, but I have yet to get it, and today I spotted. That's a pretty serious sign of being malnourished I think? I have a disgusting reaction of satisfaction either way, like I'm doing things right. My logic is so disturbed, and I know it, yet have no want or intention to fix it. No period... so weird.

I've never been able to fast before so I'm not sure why I thought this week would be any different? Today I had a cup of coffee with 2 tbsp creamer, some Boston lettuce with lemon juice, half an apple with 1 tbsp peanut butter, and a small cluster of grapes. I feel guilty about the peanut butter :(